OSCE 25/07/13

Alhamdulillah, dengan segala nikmat yg telah Allah S.W.T kurniakan maka berlalu sudah OSCE kami. InsyaAllah semoga semua lulus cemerlang (:

Tadi berdebar sangat, yakin telah gagal di stesen- stesen tertentu kerana performance yang tidak memuaskan. Panik, banyak yang telah lupa. Apabila setiap Clinical Instructor mengulas dan mengumumkan peserta- peserta yang gagal di stesen mereka, semua diam mendengar dengan teliti. Saya sendiri, jantung bagaikan mahu pecah menunggu andai turut gagal. Dan akhirnya, Maha Suci Allah, saya lulus di semua stesen! Turut bersama adalah seorang lagi pelatih. Namun masih lagi lapan pelatih yang lain dibenarkan mengulang stesen yang mereka gagal.

“Hanim, you ada repeat station?”

Tanya Coordinator bila melihat saya turut terdiam terkelu bersama rakan- rakan seusai pengumuman. Saya menggeleng dengan ragu- ragu, seakan masih tidak percaya yang nama saya tidak tersenarai gagal di mana- mana stesen.

“You mesti tolong kawan- kawan ya,” pesannya. Saya angguk menyatakan persetujuan.

Petangnya, saya dibenarkan pulang awal lalu membuat keputusan singgah mendapatkan rawatan di Staff Health Clinic. Cough, sore throat, headache, feeling warm since yesterday. Tapi yang kelakarnya bila saya geram menunggu lama, akhirnya saya dekati kaunter bertanyakan giliran yang belum tiba walhal kawan yang datang 30 minit selepas saya pun dah selesai giliran, siap pergi ambil ubat di farmasi lagi. Rupa- rupanya ada staf yang tersilap letak fail rekod perubatan saya DI BAWAH kaunter.

Ya Rabbi, bertuaaaaaaahh. Geram sangat- sangat sebab macam bazir masa tunggu lama- lama sedangkan saya tengah berkejar nak pergi bayar bil di pejabat pos lagi, mata saya pun mula berair. Ok, frankly speak I was too mad until crying. Yelah, nak marah staff tu bukan gaya sayalah nak gaduh- gaduh. I didn’t mean to let them see the tears yet one of the staff realized and came hugged me. Lagilah berjurai, almaklum budak ni manja. Haha. Dipendekkan cerita, sampai di bilik doktor pun, doktor siap tanya, “Adik, why are you crying?” Peh. Macam budak- budak. Benci. Tapi kelakar pun ada. 

Apa pun, siap dapat celebrex lagi tu untuk headache, nangis punya pasal kekekeke~

Macam ni pun ada!

Someone texted me good morning today, and then asking a lot of questions. Then I was so bored that I tricked him, purposedly chasing him away haha ^^ very amusing~

I told him that I'd easily bored with people, unsured if it might because I haven't met the right guy yet, or might as well that I don't really like guys to be exact.

So I know I gave him a shock, when he asked me, "you're not bi right?"

BHAHAHA...

I laughed all my intestines out. Relieved that he hadn't bother me anymore after that, save my day. I am very much appreciating my single, tangle-free, commitment-free life for now (:

So I know my sense of humor hasn't rusty yet. Previous day, one of the patient I attended asked me for a glass of water. "Nak banyak sikit," he said.

Saya buat- buat tak faham, tau- tau jelah saya kan suka menyakat. Buat muka hairan. "Ape dia?" Tanya si kura- kura dalam perahu.

"Nak banyak sikit," kata uncle ni lagi.

Saya buat lagi muka hairan dan tanya. "Nak banyakkkk, ke nak sikit?" Hee~ Then cepat- cepat served air while giggling since my clinical instructor actually was there, standing by that patient's side giving me her warning looks while smiling, noticing my mischieviousness. "This Hanim you know, how could she teased this patient," she said to one of my colleague that just came to help. Kekeke~

"Ku tiba lagi bersama rasa rindu datang bertamu"
 - Hyper Act

Nursing life.

You can be a nurse when you have a heart care enough to lend hands and doing ‘dirty job’.

I found out that proper greeting and acknowledgement will satisfy both you and your client. Not only it would speed up the rapport between you both, it will also add up cooperation and mutual trust.

I never practice introducing myself over 4 years during my learning time until the previous weeks I building up my career in this field. I had nothing in mind when I first introduced myself to a client, saying I’d in charge of him that day. “Mr X, I’m gonna take care of you today so if you need anything just ask for it. My name is Hanim,” I said, smiling. And out of my expectation, my client would cooperate willingly for anything I suggested, even without much persuasion. He would look up for me whenever I wasn’t in their sight, especially when his family came. He then happily introducing me to his family.

The same thing happened AGAIN yesterday to my other client.

I said the same, and got a positive feedback too. The wife and son regarded me with trust. “Oh so you are Hani is it? Uncle was looking for you before,” said the wife. Saya pun tersengih- sengih, sebab baru pulang dari makan. This uncle was sleeping when I left for a short break about 10 – 15 mins. Uncle kept on calling me Hani, Hani. I just do the same as how I did everyday to my other clients like explaining procedures, giving them assurance, informing them what and why they have to take the medications when serving them.

It is satisfying when you taking care for someone, he knew you and calling you by name. You can work professionally, happily, giving the best care ever and both sides satisfied throughout the day.

So dear fellow nurses, get a grip and continue doing the best to help your patients. There are always someone who appreciates you for taking care of them (:

ACLS and my lucks.

Today I’m so happy that gives me mood to continue updating this blog. Senyum panjang2 ^____________^

As I’m writing this, yes I admit that I am indeed very lucky all thanks to Allah S.W.T! HE answered my prayer, as what I kept praying that HE’ll grant me best places and chances. All the successful things I gained because HE willed them to happen to me, subhanallah.

“Rabbi anzilnii munzalan mubaarakan wa anta khairul munziliin”

O’ my Rabb, grant me the best places indeed You are the Best Locator.

My CIs, and manager all very nice and supportive. We, the new trainees were so lucky that our hospital was willing to sponsor us for the ACLS training on 15th-16th of July 2013, which not so many seniors even had been sent to be trained for this program. ACLS, as what its name stands for Advanced Cardiac Life Support is somewhat advanced from the BLS (Basic Life Support). It integrates all skills, knowledge and high level mental state maintenance in critical events in one, all to save the life in hands. It shaping the leadership in us, and make us step ahead to make decision and delegating tasks to other rescuer, working together as a team.

The cost for this course is RM 600 – 700 per person! Not only were we so lucky that our company sent us for this training, we even lucky that they paid for us.

So lucky that our current manager cleared up our schedule for 2 days and let our CIs helped us to prepare for this program firsthand. So we manage to get ready with knowledge, physically and mentally.

Apart from that, our group being divided into two, and mine was being coached by the CEO of the American Heart Association itself. He was a young Singaporean chinese, charismatic, funny, easy-going, understanding, sporting, supportive and very lenient. We learned and laughed, that supposed-to-be hectic and stressful training later be a very bearable one. Every session became very enjoyable and attractive learning.

He kneeled beside me on the floor when I was doing the CPR to the manikin that can detect our level of skills by showing the light detector, giving me support and correcting my ways. I really thought he wouldn’t understand malay but to my surprise, he gave me support and said to me, “kena kuat sikit!” Then when I ventilated the ‘patient’ by using bag valve mask, also he came kneeling by myside, correcting the C and E clamps. It’s not that he only came to coach me but others as well, it was only coincidentally I’ve been placed at the centre where having more spaces.

In the next session of inserting oral and nasal airway, I was the first participant to do. I was anxious since we had to go through the test straightaway when we’re only practiced once. I wanted to scan read the test checklist for the last time when he nicely took it from me and said, “Don’t worry, I’ll guide you until you can do it,” Oh, how nice of him, even making me feel very confident. I passed that test well in one shot. It then came when we trained for the tomorrow megacode exam, the exam that’d decide whether we can pass and get the ACLS license or not. He was not even pushing but let us enjoyed the session; we were laughing while practicing. He even let us practiced to intubate patient by using ETT. When it was my time, he coached me from the end of the manikin’s legs, correcting the way I hold the ETT before introduced it in, instructed to lower my gait. “Masuk, masuk!” he showed fighting gesture when I started intubation. I did it! I’m so happy, he made my heart fluttered ^^

The next day before the megacode test, also I tried again to intubate the manikin. One of my team members teasing me saying to check whether I did it right, but he said like this, “Tengok pun tau, memang masuk punyalah,” how nice of him, he boosted up my confidence level.

Saya tahu memang educator dilatih untuk memberi semangat dan puji para peserta, but I cannot help each time to feel proud and smile happily. Pantang orang puji @ bagi encouragement! Ngee.

Then each of us got the chance to practice one last time before starting the exam. He gave us different situations and cases to solve. For the test, we chose the exam scheme based on the papers that been flipped showing only blank sides. When my time came, he smiled and kept saying I’m very lucky today for getting the same incident as what I just practice, and even after that coincidentally choosing the same for my second megacode exam.. But, I was very nervous that somehow making him disappointed, and failed. He told me in person where I did it wrong and to rectify it, saying he’d give me second attempt later. Still I had to filled in my name in the megacode checklist form and as I was doing so; writing down my long name on the form with him at side silently looking without giving any comment, I was thinking in  my mind that he might being thinking that I have along name as well. Hee. Then we have to wait outside before being summoned to continue the exam.

My CI and other coordinators came asking our progress, giving us support. They didn’t believe that I failed my exam to see I’m looking contented and calm outside of the exam room. It was then when he came out and casually calling my name, gesturing to come in. He gave me and two other participants the second chances to remedy our leadership challenge. Again we have to choose based on our fate, this time he said to choose one number from 1-6.

I chose 4 as I’m the fourth child among my siblings; even I knew some people believe that it is an unlucky number. “Choiii~” said one of my real teammates, looking at me right in the eyes intensely. And to my relief, my coach said again and again this time. “You’re very lucky, you’re very lucky that you get the same case again for as the previous test,” I didn’t remember how many times more he said I’m very lucky, looking at me with smiling eyes. I re-did my megacode exam with his encouragement, but suddenly half way in my exam,

“I tell you what, let’s stop here,” 

I gasped, cupping my mouth with both hands tightly as my chest tightened and my head felt like bursting, WHAT DID I DO WRONG NOW? AM I GOING TO FAIL? Woah I really couldn’t believe it. He said again, “Let’s stop here,” and that time I felt like crying. 

“Good job, you passed. Congratulations! You’re very lucky,” he said to me. “So lucky la you,” he said again smiling, when I was still standing there with my hands cupping my mouth and staring at him feeling unbelievable. He really scared me to death T-T~~~~~ My teams shared the happiness and gave a very superb round applause with enjoyment. Waa thank you everyone for helping me ;’)

After the megacode exam finished, we still had to sit the 50 theoretical MCQs for one hour. And after finished, this 2 coaches or trainers gathered us again in the conference room. They announced the participant who achieved the best score, which is a medical officer but she already went to continue her duty.

“We are proud to announce the second participant who closely followed after, Ms Wan Nur Farhanim Radziah! Congratulations, let’s give her a round applause,” Alhamdulillah, thanks God for everything!

“Her name is so long,” said the other trainer. Then, came my trainer asking to give another round applause for me and said, “Her name is long, but it’s worth it.” It was as what I guessed when he silently looking the time I wrote my name, he recognized it.

It came when they both called it a day, and after photographing session, the participants went shook hands and thanks them. I and one of my friends chose to retreat, went back to our table without going close to them. I might have to shake hands with him if I joined the crowd now. Before getting out of the room I smiled to both of our honorable trainers and thanks them from the bottom of my heart. THANK YOU (:

THANKS FOR MAKING ME REALIZED HOW LUCKY I AM.